It’s a bit of a sad blog today im going to apologise now if you get to the end and feel the same I have your back..
Do you ever feel like your not liked or unloved?
It doesn’t matter what you do for people around you it’s never ever good enough!!
I’m in a state of fight or flight again its not beacuse I want to be but because I allow everything to bulid up inside and its the smallest thing that can force me into fight or flight mode.
Biggest down fall is that nobody actually has time for others anymore you don’t talk to people properly and even in others company that dreaded devil connection device comes out that connects us to everyone else’s life and narssastic behaviour.
I find people that are straight up talking no bullishit kind of people get less. Thought of why because we are real.
We say what others wouldn’t dare to say but then be called the bad person for what telling the truth???
Why hide, why lie, why not say how you feel.
I’ve always tried to be so nice to people I like and love I’d actually go to ends of the earth for my family and few friends I have.
I’m never fake if I don’t like someone I don’t talk to them that’s not me being nasty it’s me being real.
I’m not the best person to deal with social situations and I know I could be more open to connections but why should I change who I am so others are comfortable around me.
I’d like people to be able to trust me fully and I’d like to hope that people do.
Maybe I need to step back and let others deal with their own insecurities.
Stop trying to fix everything and everyone.
After my run this am yes something positive for me I’ve seen the clarity not everyone who smiles at you is your freind.
It’s time to put myself first for once.
At the moment I feel like I can’t breathe but that’s all on me that’s anxiety for you.
I’m taking time away from social media for a while will still be blogging hopefully but I just need a break from all the drama online and the drama in life i will have to just put my big girl pants on and suck it up get on with it.
Love you all 😊
Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ xxx