Hey everyone ❤️
I really hope you have been having a good week.
Mines not been to good emotions running high.
Typical introvert thing to do is shut myself down and push everything and everyone else away.
I’ve actually got so low I’ve now got a viral infection.
After such a good weekend with friends it was the first time I actually dreaded coming home.
That’s very unlike me…
I’m in a stage of my life where I’m not actually happy with anything apart from having my girls and even that is very testing at times.
Today I want to be postive beacuse it’s #timetotalk2020 day.
Wouldn’t life be so much easier if there was people who would just listen and not judge what your going through.
It’s very hard to just cheer up or get over situations in life it doesn’t quite work out that way.
And I agree it must be hard for loved ones and friends to know the signs that someone is so damaged and not having a clue what to say to someone or what to do for someone who’s feeling that way.
Some people who don’t like me are probably reading my blog and thinking she’s sad again and I’ve won she’s broken.
Truth is I’ve always been broken that’s from my heart but what people don’t understand is that it takes one gesture one kind word or a bit of advice to start healing process.
Truth be told I’ve not got a lot of genuine people in my life.
I’ve made that mistake of letting people in far to many times for them to miss interpret me as some kind of monster.
I’m not I’m human we all say and do the wrong thing sometimes it’s natural.
You get to a stage in life where you think it’s really not working anymore everything in your life makes an impact on your future.
And time is precious.
This year was all about me becoming someone I’ve always dreamt of being not holding back, doing what I want a love.
Apparently it’s called a blip….
I call it repeatedly wasting time on energy on people and situations that make you feel terrible.
Society today has a great way of making you feel guilty for actually wanting to change your life.
Who’s genuine who’s not, who wishes you well, who’s ready to stab you in back.
They say it’s called life… Erm think sometimes it’s hell.
I really hope that if your reading my blog and you feel similar to myself.. I hope you have someone to listen and talk too.
Not everyone’s terrible there are some genuinely nice people out there to help.
But me I’m just exhausted..
I wouldn’t say I’m clinically depressed I’ve just had enough of this hamster wheel and I want to get off.
If your feeling down or low in mood or you feel differently about life talk to someone you trust or seek help from clinical support.
You would be surprised how brave you actually are talking the first steps to recovery.
Love to you all 😊 ❤️❤️❤️
Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️