Today was dark there was no light.
I woke within a state of fight or flight.
As I sat alone and sad.
My mind twisted from good to bad.
Im sick of people saying you will be alright.
But it’s dark inside here in my mind therfore there is no light.
As my anxiety swollow’s me whole.
At every occasion it takes away my soul.
And peice by peice I felt so lost.
But what will it all cost.
The love I’ve lost the pain I’ve caused.
People’s life’s I’ve felt I’ve paused.
What will it take…
For me to break for me to give in.
This is my body and my soul I stand in my own skin.
Therfore the healing I must allow to begin.
I know there is light amongst the dark.
I must find my fight I must find my spark.
It won’t be easy it won’t be quick.
But now I’m tired and my soul is sick.
I want my life back and these feelings to dissappear.
I want you to understand me I need you near.
Support is the key and the window to my soul.
If you can’t help me fight the darkness then please let me go.
There is no room for anymore hurt or pain.
I’m ready to close the book and to start again.
I know it won’t be easy I know I will have to fight.
But I know if I just keep looking I know I’ll find the light.
Stacie Leanne 15th February 2020#poetry