Evening all ❤️
I just wanted to connect with you all this evening as I’ve not really been blogging a lot as of late.
I’ve been having to do a lot of life clearing and starting with a fresh mindset.
Have you ever just been so sick of yourself that you have had to kick yourself up the butt theoretically speaking.
But it’s true you have been stuck in a cycle for so long that it’s really vital that things need to change.
I have a fear that I’m wasting my life.
And life’s very short if you think about it take away all the nessary things like sleeping eating you know general day to day routines.
You get very little time to actually experience life.
When your a child everything is amazing like trips to zoo.. You see a giraffe and think wow I’d love to just sit with it pet it I wonder what it’s thinking.
Being an adult going to a zoo is like oh there’s a giraffe doesn’t look twice doesn’t wonder but just can’t wait to escape the giraffe House beacuse it stinks.
That’s what mostly adult life’s about we loose the ability to see the beauty in things.
We see negative and ignore the positives.
We close ourselves off and loose ourselves in this perception of what adult life is supposed to be like.
Go to school, get a job, fall in love, get married, have babies!!!
Then you wake up one day in a midlife crisis and think…
That’s great and all but life’s not stepford it’s reality.
Life’s not meant for structure its meant for us to actually live, experience & explore.
No man can never expect me to be any stepford wife… Not going to happen.
I don’t like routine it doesn’t suit me well I’ve got no choice to do it and to be honest I feel more lost than I’ve ever done in my life.
I do not want to be normal.
It may suit some but not me
I do not want to follow society or follow the normal path in life.
I’m only here as me once in this lifetime.
And whatever I learn from this lifetime I’ll take into the next one.
At times in life you get absolutely sick of everything I do most days.
But I’ve got to the point now where enough is enough.
I’ve got to get my head in the right frame of mind to make changes I need in order for me to progress.
The trouble with me is I listen to people to much and some times people’s intentions aren’t always in your best interest.
And the fear just takes over.
But now I’m more determined than ever not to show others but to prove to myself I can accomplish anything with willpower and determination.
I actually want to live not just to survive.
I want to feel love at every opportunity.
I want to experience adventure.
And most of all I want to evolve into the best version of myself.
So watch this space ❤️❤️❤️
Love to you all 😊
Stacie 🐚 💋 💄 ❤️ ❤️