Evening all ❤️
Ahh what day is it…..
Loosing track of times, days & seasons.
Bit of lighthearted humour beacuse everything is so serious at the moment.
Everyone’s in mixed emotions and scared that’s understandable.
But on the otherside of things without sounding selfish… When is it all going to end thats the million dollar question isn’t it.
Im so sick and tired of feeling anxious about going food shopping its bad enough as it is without all this.
Your scared to even breathe too loud with fear of the state coming in and shaving you bald.
I understand its for our own good but i never want to experience this again and I know im not on my own.
Trying to live a normal daily life with added pressure changes to working patterns and new procedures every few days is a nightmare.
So Called my mum up yesterday absolutely fuming in a right strop like someone had pinched my last rolo.
But after a rubbish night’s sleep bad dreams and feeling slightly nostalgic.
i think if the cat would of looked at me in the wrong way it would of pushed me over the edge.
I know im not on my own but normally i don’t mind staying in but being told i cant go out only for work and essentials maybe odd walk with kids for exercise kind of restricts my aura.
I don’t like being told i can’t do something im quite rebellious in that way.
I like to make my own choices but understand these circumstances we have no choice.
Its just to much to think about and remember….
I don’t really have problem with shutting the world out but again i was making plans to see family, friends and travelling.
All on hold like a huge majority of other people’s plans.
I was talking to a couple of friends of mine about what’s the worst experience during this lockdown.
Mine has to be hands down the shopping experience queuing in the shops queuing just to get on a website online brings me rage only the incredible hulk would understand.
Everytime i have to do the dreaded food shopping i feel like im on a episode of supermarket sweep.
Its who can dart around the store in the quickest time whist Brenda from cedar crescent takes the absolute piss looking at two types of pork pies.
And dont you even dare pick up something that’s not classed as an essential item…. You might get sent to hell and yes you Bill put that chainsaw back its not a necessity.
Its just not normal i know i must sound so ungrateful i have my health and my girls and loved ones are ok.
But this blog isn’t about the illness side of the situation.
Im fully aware of the suffering and grief its causing.
But it’s about mental health issues surrounding it too.
As soon as its all over i can’t wait to give my family a big hug and give my freinds a massive hug ive missed them terribly.
As much as I love my girls god im going to throw a party when they announce schools are opening.
There’s been tears tantrums plenty of time outs..
My poor mum has listened to me vent more times than i can remember.
And friends also have to put up with my moods thank you ladies and gents i love you all.
On the lighter note do as boris says stay home stay safe even if your going a bit stir crazy 🤪.
Hopefully we won’t be in lockdown for much longer….