Houston, we have a problem ðŸš€

Heya all ❤️

Before I start ide just like to say this isnt a blog about space sorry to get you all excited..

I just absolutely love this saying not because I’m such a nerd but because it can mean so many things as Tom hanks said it in apollo 13 when in spaceflight on the discovery of the explosion that had crippled their spacecraft in such way it stayed with movie lovers everywhere and if is often used in so many ways to say a mistake has been made but it might be unfixable.

Why I use this expression is that upon grueling impact on your own vessel during life you have to nurture the vessel to keep the soul In place and to be able to withstand what life’s throws at us if you don’t look after the vessel the soul finally breaks down.

I don’t mean in general health but more about mental wellbeing.

May seem a little morbid for some people to think this way but it’s OK to not be OK.

After a few days of extreme highs I’ve hit a low and I’ve got to keep reminding myself that I’m strong and I can get through anything.

Slightest things kick me over the edge when I’m like this everything seems a massive deal when it really isn’t.

You see when life is so busy and we don’t take time out for ourselves we slowly loose who we are and slip into a continuous cycle of being so busy we put all our own needs aside.

I can’t actually remember the last time I sat in silence.

Started reading a book or even painting my nails as silly as that sounds.

I literally don’t know how to switch off and my phone is always. Constantly going.

Then I’m flooded with messages asking if I’m OK don’t get me wrong it’s nice that people care.

But I’m best left alone I will come round on my own terms.

It all gets a bit much sometimes so I end up going…

Just so I can completely shut down and refocus if I don’t I’m like a ticking time bomb.

So it essential that we completely switch off and take time our for ourselves.

So here’s me trying to detox myself and by using himalayan salt bath crystals gold face mask and lip mask.

May I just add these peel of masks are more painful that waxing and for love of god don’t put it anywhere near your eyebrows you will end up looking like a fish….

Have a fabulous day or evening where ever you are.

Remember self care is important for your mental health ❤️❤️

Love stacie xx

Is it summer yet ðŸ¤”

Hey all happy Saturday.

I did say I was going to do a review of bondi sands gradual everyday tanning milk so here it is…

So it’s payday and I’m in my local superdrug store in town and I’ve been moaning all week on how I looked very gothic for the approaching summer months.

Everyone says hey life’s better with a tan so I thought yes why not but I really wanted to avoid that nasty beef crisps smell and looking like a crusty tiger roll from tesco in the wearing off stage.

If I’m honest I’ve been researching that skinny tan but I’ve seen mixed reviews so I was kind of put off that due to the numerous bad reviews that’s it’s not worth the money.

I’ve tried most tans and I very rarely get a spray tan unless it’s a special occasion.

Just needed something that was easy and quick drying and that doesn’t smell totally discusting.

Saw this on the shelf and thought it’s a pretty big bottle for £7.99

Normal retail price is £11.99.

I couldn’t wait to use it that’s the sadness attached to me in life and your in your 30’s get excited about getting a new kettle or a microwave you know post middle age issues.

So yesterday evening was the first time I’ve used it and honestly I’m quite impressed.

Not used a gradual tan for a long time it’s always been a full on tan no going back till it fades..

Back in the day dove gradual tan was the go to product when my grandparents used to curse at me don’t use that self tan rubbish it will give you skin cancer no grandad the only thing that will happen here is ide be looking like a cheesy wotsit.

Old people 🙄 god rest their soul..

So me being old school thought why not just try a more advanced product and see if a gradual tan will be easier to maintain within my busy lifestyle.

Well I have to say a little bit goes a long way you don’t need hand fulls of the stuff to cover your body drying time is around 10 mins you need to make sure you properly dry your skin before applying if being used after a shower or bath.

You must allow the lotion to dry before dressing but I’ve not seen any product rub off on my clothes.

Only problem I had I forget to wash my hands after use so now they are slightly darker in between my fingers than rest of my body. 🤦‍♀️

The smell isn’t to bad at first smells like biscuits but it does wear off after a while.

After one application this is my result..

I have to say I was a pale shade of white I’ve not applied any other products apart from bondi sands gradual everyday tanning milk.

I no longer feel like a goth even though I’m still a inner goth I feel my dark brown hair suits better with a natural looking tan.

So honestly would I recommend this product yes I would.

I would give it 4 ⭐⭐⭐⭐ not giving it 5 as I really hoped it didn’t smell at all but honestly it doesn’t smell horrific otherwise I wouldn’t use it.

So I’m going to continue to use it and see how it goes but overall its a good product.

Click the link below to purchase yours today…


bondi sands gradual everyday tanning milk superdrug UK

Peace out✌️❤️


Stacie xx

Fight or flight âœˆï¸ðŸ¥Š

Hey everyone

What a week it’s been I’ve been in a constant state of fight or flight.

I’ve been in survival mode for so long that I’ve finally start to feel numb.

I’ve tried to keep away from social media this week just needed to have a quite word with myself.

Truth is I’m heartbroken on so many levels in my life to feel actual pain in my heart almost everyday this is combined situations from my past and my present situation.

Constantly feeling the need to defend myself and my actions to people they would never listen to what I have to say b it is pretty much hard work.

I always try to keep myself busy with the girls and with work

But this week I’ve not been able to block it all out aswell as I normally do

Mental health is so underfunded in the UK to many people mental health issues are misunderstood they say oh get over it pull yourself together it’s really not that easy.

Infact it’s bloody hard work to pretend you’re OK everyday when you aren’t.

Thing is with this blog I haven’t posted with intention of making people feel bad.

Infact it’s quite a different approach I’ve now taken in my life

I’ve been dwelling and I really could kick myself sometimes I’m a massive….

It’s a horrible feeling I can’t get rid off doesn’t matter how I try I just can’t move forwards and I’m not sure if I can or even if I want too.

I’m really trying my best trying to put plans in place for me to look forward im guessing somethings we can’t have or be apart of in life doesn’t matter how much we want to be apart of it.

I will be trying to relax this bank hols so I will give you a review of the bondi gradual tan when I’ve used it for the next few days.

Peace out thanks for reading…

Stacie xx

Late night playlist ðŸŒƒðŸ˜´â¤ï¸

Late night playlist here is a few of my favourite songs I love to listen too ❤️

Coldplay the scientist

Muse madness

Matchbox 20 3am

Matchbox 20 unwell

Kodaline all I want

Counting crows have you seen me lately

Counting crows Anna begins

The beatles all my life

Mumford and sons snake eyes

Kings of Leon use somebody

Drake summer games

Pink 90 days

Lord huron the night we met

Adele turning tables

Lady gaga & Bradley Cooper always remember us this way

The killers when you were young

Aretha Franklin change is gonna come

Sam Cooke bring it on home to me

Fleetwood mac the chain

Enjoy 💋

Love stacie xx

Why do we need Mondays ðŸ™„🙄

Evening all

Help I have Sunday evening anxiety weekends go so fast and weeks so slow.

Yes I moaning again I know may seem like this is all I do.

But honestly I flipping hate Mondays.

People say its a chance to start a fresh week how so what will always be will always remain the same I say.

Im not a live for the weekend kind of person I rarely go out these days.

Gone are the days of 6am going home time after a cheap night in Chicago`s in Walsall whilst your sisters been throwing up some poor lads shoes and riding around Morrisons car park in a shopping trolley.

Or last minute holidays to Greece 🇬🇷 with my big sister managing to wake up half the hotel beacuse I thought there was a giant crab in the pool which turned out to be a pool cleaner.

Yes I was a little drunk and maybe over excited.

I’m mostly happy now with gin in the fridge and flat shoes home by 11pm sometimes the stacie at 20 comes out occasionally but takes about 2 weeks to recover after it.

I kinda miss my youth where making mistakes was expected of us.

Now have to do this going to work the rest of my life lark and it’s pretty pants.

Monday morning dread is the worst though you go to bed early on a Sunday thinking I will try be asleep by 10pm nope your up still by 1am googling stuff like package holidays and why is my cat moaning all the time.

Brain please sleep you need to be fully alert for what ever Monday throws at you and normally it throws more like a

Yep that’s the reality.

At the moment I’m trying bed time tea to stop my anxiety before bed.

My last thoughts of the day are always the same and they do say what and who you think of before bed is where your heart is.

Well back to this tea it did help first few nights but now it’s more like a punishment only way I can discribe it tastes like dandelion and some nasty weed that grows on the worst part of the garden.

It’s not the best 🤮

At the moment I’m not on any medication for anxiety I personally am trying to manage it on my own.

Me being me won’t have much help I don’t need it worst people in world than me that need NHS help.

My mum calls it me being stubborn but unfortunately that’s one of my bad traits.

So I go into Monday thinking what on earth with this week bring.

I will smile at work and bring our my alter ego called Betty she’s nothing like stacie she’s polite she’s happy she’s helpful and she doesn’t moan.

See nothing like me 😊

I hope where ever you are in the world you have a good week if not you can just sit by me and we can moan together.

Peace out ✌️✌️❤️.

Stacie xx

What’s love got to do with it..

Afternoon all

I hope your having a great weekend.

I often get asked about my love life which I find totally annoying.

I’m a very private person when it comes to matters of the heart where I am generally a very open person with other subjects when it comes to the four letter world it makes me have a heart attack.

I feel we all fall in love 😩 once completely in our life’s sometimes for others it’s more but I honestly feel we all find our one soul mate once for some of us it works out perfectly.

For some of us not so much…

You know that one person we gravitate back to even if it’s been months or years weither it’s been good or bad endings you will always find each other again.

And if you don’t you have memories you have shared together.

Sometimes we find people we connect with on a whole different level and I’m not talking about liking the same TV shows or same bands etc it’s about connecting on a whole different level not just common intrests anyone can make anyone laugh doesn’t mean just beacuse you both like game of thrones and his farts make you laugh once in a while makes you the perfect couple Infact I’m not even sure if perfect is real.

Your relationship can be rocky and testing and sometimes you would just love to say you know what 🖕 you I’m done.

But they are meant to test us and that one person can drive us crazy but we still love them anyway.

Doesn’t matter how many times you fight or give up on each other fate will always pull you back together.

I have to say I’m a terrible at communication in a relationship

I’m not selling myself here am I really..

I know what I need to say but it Doesn’t come out right.

When it comes to emotion I’m absolutely rubbish doesn’t mean I don’t feel anything but when it comes to openly talking about feelings I shut down.

For me I know personally how to find a soul mate and loose them again and this feels terrible and I have regrets everyday.

I just thank them for allowing me to be apart of there life.

And if the universe aligns again between us it would probably be…

So if you ever find your soul mate make sure you hold on with both hands through the rough and smooth and be open to listen and understand that life’s not plain sailing it’s just a ride.

For me who knows what’s next…

Peace out ✌️❤️

Stacie xx

Social media fairytale ðŸ§šâ€â™€ï¸

Evening all

I’m so happy it’s Friday I’m sure your all happy too unless your working this weekend if you are booo..

I’ve seen a lot of posts today about keeping your social media real. #keepthegramreal

Although I have to admit I do love a Snapchat filter myself but I have to completely agree sometimes I look at people’s Instagram posts and I feel a little wave of insecurity come over me.

I know I’m not the only one who thinks this although I’m happy for people but sometimes our insecurities can take over our logical way of thinking then you start doubting yourself.

One thing I’ve learnt over the past few months is its OK not to be perfect.

Everyone has their good and bad days.

So what if your hairs messy.

Or you can’t be bothered to do your make up its not end of the world self care emotionally is more important.

Also living your life is important making memories taking time out to think away from technology and people.

Social media can be a great way to communicate but it can also become very toxic to people.

Just remember no one is perfect we all have bad days and good days don’t compare yourself to anyone.

Most of all don’t judge anyone you don’t know what they are going through.

Join the campaign and #keepthegramreal ❤️❤️❤️

Love to you all 💋💋💋💕

Stacie xx

Help it’s only Tuesday ðŸ˜±

Heya all

Cant believe its only Tuesday all these Bank Holidays off has got me all spoilt and that.

You know when you can feel like it’s going to be the longest week of your life well yep well this is my week commencing.

It’s more like a constant loop for me every week is the same go to work sort kids oh and sleep I love to sleep.

When my weeks are like this it gives me lots of time to think.

Me I hate thinking its the worst and for anyone who knows me knows I can be a complete nightmare when I’m like this.

You see I’m an overthinker I’m always thinking of what could happen instead of just letting things happen naturally.

It’s almost like I’m trying to control my own fate which is impossible.

I could really just do with someone taking all the thoughts and feelings out of my head storing them in a locked box and throwing the keys away that would be amazing.

ide love to start fresh maybe meet people for the first time again how I would change situations and how I approach people in a better way so they could see the real me.

The trouble with me is that I try to hard to be the perfect person that people want me to be instead of being the person I am.

But I have no magic time machine nor can I fix what’s broken from my past I will just have to live with my mistakes and learn from them.

I’ve never been good with my emotions I can’t quite get out what need to say in person.

But when I write and blog I feel it’s a sense of healing for me.

It’s a perfect way to share my feelings and thoughts.

I know I’m not the only one in the world who’s feeling a little heart broken but I really would like to share this with my readers.

Your doing the best you can in life your alive your breathing your living find it in your heart to forgive people who treat you badly and know that everyone is fighting battles we know nothing about be kind share love.

I pray for a quick week and slow weekend I hope you do too ❤️

Peace out ✌️✌️💋

Stacie x

Ohana means family, â¤ï¸ðŸ‘¨â€ðŸ‘©â€ðŸ‘§ðŸ‘­ðŸ‘«

Evening 😊

I hope you have all had a fantastic weekend.

Mines been amazing my family from down south came to visit it was really nice to see them Seems like forever since I last saw them.

When I made my decision to move up the northwest it wasn’t an easy one probably the hardest choice I had to make.

Leaving my parents and my sister and my neice behind wasn’t easy I’m a very strong person I do deal with hard situations quite well but making a choice to leave them and try to create a better life for me and my girls was the hardest choice I’ve ever had to make.

My parents have always given me the space to grow and be independent in life.

They are not over the top parents who need a say in every aspect of my life.

We definitely don’t live in each others pockets.

But as we get older you learn to treasure the time spent together.

Making memories is what’s important.

My girls have cherished the time we they have spent with their grandparents their auntie uncle and cousin.

To me distance means nothing Infact its made me cherish my family more.

One thing I never take for granted is time it was so nice to see a smile on my dad’s face again.

Ide like to share a few pics with you all….

Have a great week all.

Peace out

Stacie xx

Beauty Locks hot chocolate â˜•ðŸ’â€â™€ï¸ðŸ’†â€â™€ï¸

Hello everyone hope your well.

Today I’ve received my beauty Locks hot chocolate drink so I thought ide give you a bit of a review.

I have to say I’ve been feeling a little drained recently so I decided to go on a little bit of a health kick to help my body recover after my illness.

I came across this product on Instagram after researching best vitamins to help with your hair nails and skin.

I don’t know about you but I really struggle to keep on top of taking lots vitamins along side my medication mostly remembering to take them everyday is a nightmare with my busy lifestyle.

So I just needed something I that would take away all the faffing about but something I could also have that would still give me what I needed.

So I thought ide give beauty Locks a try is a 30 day program with just one cup a day no messing about opening endless vitamin tubs just add 1 tablespoon of Beauty Locks Hot Chocolate.

Pour on near boiling water and stir.

I added one sweetener and bit of semi skimmed milk.

It’s also a low calorie drink so great for if your on a healthy eating program.

BeautyLocks is formulated with all of the essential hair-friendly vitamins which include Biotin, Folic Acid and vitamin B group combined they work hard to nourish your hair from within, so you can grow longer, stronger and thicker hair, increase hair strength and elasticity, as well as reducing breakage for overall healthier hair.

You can also experience benefits with a clearer healthier skin complexion and stronger healthier nails.

I normally don’t like hot chocolate drinks but I have to say I’m quite impressed with this product for the overall taste of it.

It’s actually quite nice.

I will be reviewing this product every so often to let you all know how I’m genuinely feeling whilst using beauty Locks.

But If you want to check the product out follow the link below 👇 👇

beauty Locks hot chocolate link click me

If you order today you will only pay £2.99 for postage.

Peace out ✌️

Stacie xx